Down 17 lbs??
So I went to see Dr. H yesterday, and he said I had dropped 17 lbs since my last visit. Can that be right??? Someone please tell my pants! I seem to be stuck in a size 18…don’t get me wrong – I’m not complaining at all! Compared to a size 24, an 18 is GREAT! But after losing 60 lbs total, I really feel like I should be in smaller pants.
My dress size has shrunk to a size 14!! Woop Woop!! But of course, the cut of the dress has a lot to do with it. If it’s slightly flared at the hips, I’m good. If it’s a straight cut, it looks like…well…let’s just say it ain’t pretty. All the Spanx in the world couldn’t make that pretty!!
The pregnant-looking belly is the part that irritates me the most. Since the rest of me is shrinking, and the belly is hanging on for dear life, I really am worried about looking preggers!! No one has said anything yet – but that’s always been the one thing to make me spiral into a oblivion of self-loathing (usually accompanied by a gallon of ice cream). I’ll never forget the time I was in Target with my brand-new baby (ok, so she was actually 4 months, but so what), and this wicked old lady came up to me and PUT HER HAND ON MY BELLY AND ASKED ME WHY ON EARTH I WAS HAVING ANOTHER! I wanted to slap her, and I couldn’t decide which infraction made me the angriest. Was it because she touched me, a perfect stranger? Was it because she thought that it was her business to scold me about how many children I choose to have? Or was it because she was evil and thought I was pregnant? Her daughter (or grand-daughter) came running over apologizing, but the damage had been done. After she was shaken from my evil, icy stare she walked away. I ran home and devoured an entire box of oatmeal cream pies. Pretty much the story of my life…moving on…
I haven’t been feeling all that great lately – maybe that has something to do with the unexplained weight loss. A couple of weeks ago, I went to my PCP because of some dizziness and fainting. My blood pressure was very low, but my heart rate was fine. Go figure. They did an EKG, and everything was fine there too. My doc wasn’t real happy – but only because she didn’t know what was going on with me. I’ve been having these weird semi-blackout occurences, too. I haven’t actually passed out – but I feel and see this blackness coming around me…when it gets to the point where I can hardly see, I’ll sit down and wait it out. It usually passes in a couple of minutes, and then I’m incrediby tired. It’s very difficult to muster enough energy to get up from where I’m sitting. The first time it happened, I slept for 3 hours afterwards. Weird, huh? My PCP told me to call her back in 2 weeks if I have any more problems, but I haven’t done that because I’m scared of what she’ll do. She said she’d run a “battery of tests.” What does THAT mean??? Argh…(that’s pirate for ‘dang’).
Dr. H asked me yesterday if I’d been eating okay, and I truthfully told him yes. I’ve been struggling with hunger about 1 1/2 – 2 hours after a meal, but I’ve grown used to it. He gave me my 3rd fill, and I was on my way. The usual requirement of liquids/mushies for 2 days was in effect. But since I’m so much smarter than someone with a medical license (yeah right!) I decided this morning that I was ready for solids. I tried a protein bar. I vomited the protein bar. Next time I’ll be listening to Dr. H!!
Thats AWESOME! I am so excited for you. I saw DR. K yesterday and I had lost another 9 pounds, so that makes me down 95 pounds, only 5 more to make 100, my goal is to fly by that goal when I go back on the 12th.
I was sad not to see you at suppot group last night. Maybe I’ll see you next month.
Until THen- keep up the good work.
WOW!!! You’re doing so great!! I was getting myself all psyched up for support group, and then my kiddos reminded me that we had a church camp fundraiser that we were obligated to work on at Chicken Express. We had to hold signs in the 94 degree heat/humidity! Then we got to go inside and hand out trays of food to people. Great idea btw…put 10 adolescent boys/girls outside in the heat and humidity for a half hour, get them all good and sweaty and grass-stained, then bring them inside to serve food to people. YUM! LOL…