Good News & Bad News
I had a doctor’s appointment yesterday, and got my 2nd fill. The good news (GREAT news!!!!) is that I lost 7 more pounds since my last doctor’s appointment!! Woot woot!!! The bad news is that I’m STILL hungry! Will this feeling ever end? It’s been 2 months since my surgery – I’m down 51 lbs (including my weight loss from the 2 week pre-op liquid diet). But I really don’t feel much of a difference as far as my hunger levels are concerned. I mean, I guess there’s a LITTLE bit of a full feeling during my meal. But about 30 – 40 minutes after, I’m hungry again. Urrrrgh…I long for the day that 1/2 cup of food will make me feel full (or at least satisfied) until my next mealtime. I’m getting discouraged.
But don’t get me wrong – I’m NOT going to fail at this. I know this isn’t a quick fix (kind of wish it had been, though). I know that I’m still going to have to change my life completely in order for this to work. And I have changed my life: my eating habits AND my lazy tendencies. Nowdays, when I’m bored – I no longer go to the fridge to find something to eat. I go to the fridge to clean it out….or the pantry….or my car….or the attic. Cleaning is my new addiction. I hate it, but I love the effects of it. I love how relaxed I feel when I’m sitting in my clean house!! I love getting up in the morning and stumbling into my kitchen, only to find a clean, shiny sink with NO DISHES in it!
So I guess I kind of feel like I’m doing ALL this work, and I’m not really seeing the results as quickly as I’d hoped. I don’t know what I expected – I mean, 51 lbs is awesome…but I’m still in the same size clothes as I was before. I can fit into one size down, but it’s a tight squeeze, and sort of uncomfortable. I don’t know – maybe I’m just used to wearing “buffet britches,” and getting back into normal button/zip/snap type clothes are taking some getting used to.
::SIGH:: I guess I’m just impatient. I’m working on that, though. I’m also working on my newly acquired disorders: OSCD – Obsessive Scale Checking Disorder; and DCD - Dysfunctionl Comparison Disorder….ok, ya got me – both terms are completely made up, but they’re very real to me!!! I am trying so hard to stop comparing myself to other people. I don’t know how many times I asked Dr. H if 7 lbs was “normal.” Geesh!!
Ya’ll bear with me – I’m a work in progress!!!
Wow! Your progress is amazing. You are truly on a roll with your weight loss. Keep cleaning because it is working for you.
Don’t forget about support group this coming Monday the 10th. Hope to see you there.
Aww, Man!! My hubs is out of town all week, and I don’t have anyone to watch my little ones!! I’m gonna have to miss it this month!
How are you doing?
Things are going well. I lost another 10 pounds (making 86 pounds lost total) since my last appointment. Support group was a little different last night, Wadley is in the process of getting a new bariatric coordinator, so it wasn’t a normal meeting. I’ll look forward to seing you next month on the 14th.